“Resilient people aren’t afraid to admit they have weaknesses. Whether an effective leader acknowledges problems within an organization, or an individual recognizes areas in need of personal growth, resilient people use failure as an opportunity to spot their weaknesses.”Amy Morin
When I first began blogging in 2014 it was meant to be a way to share my life as I created a new one in California. I was a newlywed and my husband accepted a job offer that would sweep us up from our established lives in Virginia and transplant us to a small beach town I had never heard of. Ventura would become, over the following four years, a very special place to us. We met friends who would quickly become family, we experienced parenthood for the first time there, and for two years of Greyson’s life we all enjoyed the prospect of being a small family living that simple beach life. However, life would have other plans for us because as we peeled back our understanding of where we were in our lives and what gave it purpose, we realized that there were aspects that even the beach couldn’t fully cover up. So, we packed up our life in 2018 and moved once more – this time to San Diego.
Prior to our move my husband and I took a serious inventory of our lives and questioned everything from what could we remove, what could we accept, where could we grow within ourselves, and be courageous enough to seek new opportunities. For me, I had an epiphany that stemmed from a sense of being overwhelmed with blogging as I was struggling to find my sense of identity outside of being a mom. Being home with him allowed me the time to grow my blog, take on new opportunities, and even start a little lettering shop, but as the years passed I found bits and pieces of myself fading. I wasn’t sure who I was or what I was supposed to do with what I had been given and created during that time.
So, I let it go.
Just like that.
You see, blogging had filled a certain void when I found myself as a stay-at-home-mom navigating the new landscape that was a newborn. I enjoyed writing about my life; sharing and living authentically albeit through a computer screen. I’d finally found a sense of belonging and challenged myself in new ways through writing for my blog and achieving successes here and there with it. However, over time and this constant feeling of needing to keep up with it all, I found my identity once again slowly dissipating into the many projects I had undertaken. The cup that was once filled with these things began to slowly pour out and eventually I ran empty.
In efforts to restore my sense of self I knew it would require me to dig deep and make some necessary changes. Ones that could potentially undo all of the hard work I had put in for so many years.
So how did I survive during this identity crisis?
In 2017 I chose a word that would inspire and influence my year. That word was: simplify. I felt God placing on my heart this sense of simplifying my life because everything I was taking on brought me only fleeting joy and purpose – it wasn’t lasting. In taking that proverbial step in faith, I began simplifying and decided to close my blog, take a break from social media, and focus on the areas of my life that needed rest and attention – like my family and relationships. I’m thankful I followed faithfully because there was a gradual sense of restoration as I took these steps to fill my cup once more, but with the things that mattered. It also provided me the time to process and deal with a number of personal challenges that required my attention and even the Thomas Fire, which caused us to evacuate, allowed us to all to slow down and reevaluate ourselves in more ways than one.
Other ways in which I restored my identity through these life struggles were: I went back to work, I witnessed Grey flourish while going to school for the first time, and I took baby steps in reintroducing myself to my creative endeavors like the direction of my lettering shop and becoming a clean beauty consultant with Beautycounter. By simplifying the number of plates I’m spinning, I’m allowed to focus my creative energy in a more meaningful way – like this blog.
Here at Little Fox my mission is to create a space to connect – something I set out to do since the very beginning. I’m thankful to be on this journey once more and I am honored to have you walk alongside me. Thank you to those who have supported me in everything I’ve dreamed up and through every step in my personal growth. It’s because of you I am refreshed and excited to share this new chapter of my life with you all!